“Strange” is just another word for “addictive”
You know when you go to a pet shop and you’re greeted by all these friendly dogs, but then you see this one shy dog in the corner… and it actually looks all the cuter for it? Rather than the dogs who are looking at you like “buy me already woof woof!,” I find the dogs who look like they’re saying “I don’t care either way…” much cuter. While it’s kind of questionable to compare her to a dog, there was a girl like that in Morning Musume before: the now-graduated Fukuda Asuka.
When I first saw Fukuda at the ASAYAN “Female Rock Vocalist Audition,” she was just like that. While the other entrants were all smiling and acting super-friendly, there was this one girl who wasn’t smiling much but was rather beaming in a different, more low-key way. That’s not in any way to say that she was “gloomy” or “plain,” only that while the others were all trying to push forward, I was drawn to her because of how she seemed like she was pulling back in a way.
Sure, I also just thought, “well, isn’t this girl cute with her puffy cheeks and all.” But it was more the yin side of her that really drew me to her — so damn impudent, but so cute. It’s like she was trying to come across as tough by using her facial expressions. Fukuda is the one who most gave me a feeling of that rock’n’roll spirit. It felt as if she was telling me, “if you’re just going to drag me along for no good reason, I’d rather you didn’t let me through at all.“
1: 名無し募集中。。。 2017/12/05(火) 20:42:20.22 0.net
Currently living in a two-room apartment with her daughter, she spoke to us on the topic of living on part-time wages. “I buy most things from the 100-yen store. All my daughter’s toys are hand-me-downs from friends. When it was really bad, I would wash my hair with baking soda. If I really cut down on the food expenses, I can get by with 10,000 yen a month.“
On her sudden retirement: “My 12-year-old mind simply couldn’t deal with being thrust into such a hectic environment. I wasn’t able to sing like I wanted to; move like I wanted to… I just couldn’t keep up.“
She later quit high school, having become stricken with social anxiety. “Even after my retirement and going back to normal life, random people on the train or at the convenience store would recognize me as being a “national idol” and chase me around. I thus became something of a shut-in.“
Speaking softly, she looks back on her past: “I think that if it wasn’t for singing, I wouldn’t have ended up like this. If only it wasn’t for music, I would’ve had a happier life.“
She later went on to restart her musical activities thanks to a work acquaintance. She rediscovered the joy of singing in front of an audience. She now sings in a band she formed six years ago, while also working as a voice trainer. She finishes, smiling: “It’s the times when my singing actually reaches someone. That’s what keeps me going.“
2: 名無し募集中。。。 2017/12/05(火) 20:43:12.95 0.net
That’s the unavoidable price of fame.
It simply can not be helped.